Dear Evan,

When we first talked, I knew we had an incredible bond that would never be broken; I knew you would always be an important part of my life no matter what title you held for it and that you were someone incredibly special. The amount of things we have in common is astounding and I know sometimes it can be creepy, but how we can read each other is something so rare between two people that I'm happy I have that with you. You're worth every early morning, staying up until the sun rises sharing deep conversations, sometimes silly conversations and laughs until I'm crying because I can't take it anymore - you really are the most hilarious person I've ever met in my life. Every time my cheeks were sore from smiling so much, or my ribs hurt because you made me laugh so hard are all moments leading up to what became you and I and I'm so grateful for every single one of those moments and I'll always be grateful for you.

I'm so proud to say you're my boyfriend now and that it became clear over time we're soulmates. I'm so proud to say the most incredible person I've ever known feels the same way about me as I feel about him. These past few months have showed me what true happiness is thanks to you being a part of my life. You have showed me what love really is and how someone can enter your life so quickly and become the most important person you will ever meet, and that's you for me. You have thanked me so many times for my patience with you, but now it's time for me to thank you for yours. The first time I reached for your hand I felt butterflies and the blood rushed from my head so fast I felt like I was about to pass out. When my fingers laced with yours and I pulled myself up closer to you because even then I couldn't get close enough I knew just how special we were. My approach with us was not to have the ball completely in my court even though you'd given it. I wanted you to move at your pace and be comfortable; I wanted us to move together rather than just be a guide with a sense of entitlement because you liked me and wanted to be with me too. I had no doubts about us, all of my trust was in you and I. Every single moment with you is learning what love truly is because I have never felt this way before and I never will again because I only ever want you, I want us forever. When we shared our first kiss I remember looking deep into your eyes searching for that soul connected to mine and I could hear you breathing ever so softly, I felt your breath across my lips and when I leaned in to kiss you, I really stopped breathing before my heart beat out of my chest. I can never get enough of you and I love that feeling so much. This is our journey together guiding each other on the path we took for ourselves and every step with you has been the best moment of my life, babe. You're the best thing to ever happen to me.

You're the bright of my day, the light from the moon, the stars in the're my everything. I've never been filled with so much happiness and love in my entire life and every day I see your face, hear your voice or even wake up for a split second in the middle of the night and feel your body against mine I know that we've found something special. You make me happy, everything about you does and I never stop smiling around you. You are the embodiment of beauty and perfection, and you are everything I could have ever wished for in someone to love. You're what dreams are made of why it's not worth dreaming anymore because you're right there waiting for me when I wake up.

I've never been huge on the holidays, but you've put spirit back into my heart for having the love of my life to share them with. As 2018 comes to an absolute perfect close for us, I can't wait to see what 2019 has in store for the journey of you and I. Our story has only just begun and I fall in love with you more every single day. Thank you for wanting me to be a part of your life, for seeing me for who I really am, putting your trust and heart in me and loving me as much as I love you. Our relationship is the best gift of this entire year and you're all I need to celebrate it. Merry Christmas, my heart. I love you so much and I always will.

Yours eternally,